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Went back to somewhere on last friday ,
don’t know how to describe my feelings ,
on the way to there ,
I was extremely excited to see them all ,
so I drove freaking fast and speedy ,
couldn’t wait to meet them and join their funny crapping ,
something went down on prefectorial board ,
just like what others thinking ,
I hope the next reunion would grant them a new hope ,
and slightly reach to another peak.

Another feeling ,
I saw somebody once I reach there ,
hard to explain who the hell he is ,
and I guessed she was around there too ,
saw her afterward ,
these are what made me speechless that day ,
I tried to make myself keep a little bit away from her ,
to ensure that my mind won’t catch on her.

As usual , our gathering at Umarani ,
something unexpected happened ,
couldn’t even escape from it ,
so I keep making myself distract from it ,
but act like attract from it ,
I , never ever think that something happened to her ,
until someone told me the whole thingy ,
couldn’t ever get an answer for that ,
sometimes ,
I rather choose not want to know ,
it makes my life better and won’t suffer ,
sick of knowing that !

Better don’t let me know anything else about her ,
for the sake of not losing a crapping friend like me.

Aiks , what the hell holidays are this ? Holidays started five days before chinese new year ,and going to end by this week , I rather go to college , at least I won’t get bored there , it’s better than staying at home and watching tv , and messing with the tmnut screamyx , mess till my headache disease comes back find me , argh , that pain is not that easy to handle. What to do ?

I planned to go out 2 days ago , but I didn’t go , tomorrow I must go out , and have a hair cut , for better appearance during chinese new year I was thinking , what was I doing at this time in the previous year , 3 years and 2 months and 2 days already ,what the hell la me ,still haven’t let it go , time can’t heal soul , it’s real , I need a replacement for her , really , sorry.